Lyrics by Cisco Posted by:Sally--Thursday, January 26, 2012

When we tested Cisco on December 5th and the drug test turned up positive Rocco and I told Cisco he could not live at our home. He lived haphazardly for over a month; going from one friend's house to another, using drugs and spiraling downward until he hit bottom and could not find a place to lay his head. He asked for help and on January 17th he went back to First Step to detox. He did well all week and they think he has turned the corner. I say, time will tell.

I was going through some paperwork today and found this poem that Cisco wrote about a year ago. I felt good when I read this poem and it helps me to see Cisco for who he truly is. My son first, an addict second.

Soldiers

Sensitive, caring, honest and sharing.
Cautious and humble, get back up when stumble.

Responsible, hardworking, successful, all earning.
From you guys I'm learning, to you guys I'm turning.

No genes, no hair color, eye color don't matter,
You were there when I climbed to the top of the ladder,
Got stuck in a rut with defeat so apparent,
...this man and this woman, these people, my parents.

So cold and so lonely, so high and unaware,
Thought I was alone,
Not acknowledging you were there.

I went down those stairs,
Closed my door from your love,
Not knowing how bad,
I was hurting those above.

Pushing and shoving and swearing and breaking,
Smoking and drinking and cutting and taking.
Leaving and fighting and crying and shaking.....
You never gave up and for this I am thanking.

Mom and Dad, you've got stronger as parents,
As people, you're soldiers, not weak, not embarrassed.

Some day when I'm older,
And you're given a break,
With me and Joe's children playing down by the lake,
Our blankets our baskets,
What dreams once seemed fake,
We'll be the ones,
Serving food on your plates.